I read Saranpreet's blog post today, as most days. She has truly made an amazing journey, and how much I ever feel happy and warm fuzzy feelings for my spiritual sisters journey, I am wondering way I am so slow? I feel like a three year old child not a thirty year old woman. "I want, I want! Me too, me too..." but life is not like that... I will receive what I am ready for... I know I shouldn't compare, you never should. But I want everything to go fast, fast, fast and I guess this spiritual awakening thing is taking the time it needs, or more to the point, the time I need.
What I miss is the complete letting myself go, bow your head and go home like Snatam Kaur sings in the song Golden Temple. I so admire Saranpreet for that, while I treading water she just dives from the shores (as I think she wrote once).
One day I will be ready. One day I will hear someone call "Har Anand" and I will turn around and smile. Thinking of this makes my eyes tear up.
This is what I want to sing, play and feel! Wahe Guru Bliss - Bachan Kaur And this is also what I wish for all my spiritual sisters out there, and if you are a spiritual brother... well, come join the family! :-)