Going back

The last months has left me a bit lost but today, for the first time in a long time I feel home again. So what do I do or what did happen? Easy, I read Japji again. I haven't read Japji in the morning (or at all) for more than a month. But I think I needed to feel lost so I could find my way back. And all along I knew that I needed Japji, it was the missing part.

I have also been taking a look at Snatam's new cd called Ras, the last track Mere Ram speaks directly to the light in my heart. I feel surrounded, safe, filled with love and in the company of the holy just by hearing a short piece of that tune. Read Ramdesh Kaur's review of Ras on Spirit Voyage blog.

Love & Light,

Celebrate life - dance!

Free form dancing with a little bhangra thrown in the mix. I felt every cell of my body vibrate with the creative energy of God!

I put out my sheepskin because I like the way it feels under my feet when I dance. Of course, I was dancing around in the whole living room but the sheepskin functioned as a centre. A place to dance back to, from time to time. I set aside about 60 minutes, here is music and scheme I did today:

1. I danced around and sung along to Mahan Kalpa - Ek ong kaar, satgur prasad.
2. I continued with Satkirin Kaur's Chattar Chakara Varatee
3. More Mahan Kalpa - Advertisement for your soul and Breakdown (the ego)
4. I watched the chapter about basic steps from Dancing Bhangra with Ravi (I bought mine from Satnam.de) while doing the first four (I think?) basic bhangra steps.
5. I turned off the DVD and played some bhangra dance music and did some free form dancing! I used what I had learned and mixed it with my own moves for about 10 minutes.
6. I slowed down and danced softly to Snatam Kaur's Anand, feeling loved and happy.
7. I lay down and relaxed to Snatam Kaur's - Golden temple

If you want to try it, please be loving and kind to your body. Don't do anything that feels uncomfortable or painful. The key is not to overdo-it, this is about flow and love.

Love and Light,

Happy and scared and happy

I am in a lovely mood, feeling scared. It's loking more and more likely that I will visit the European yoga festival this summer and somehow this is a bit scary for me.

MrSikhnet linked to a musician called Hargo, he is a really talented musician(I am a rockchic at heart) but I got totally hooked on his TurbanCam of an India visit. Check it out!

Have a nice weekend, sweet cybersangat!

Love & light as always,

Upcoming weekend

This weekend it is teacher's training again. Bhai Himat Singh from New Mexico is coming to teach us about Yogic healing. I think this will be a very interesting weekend.

Through The Stay Strong Project, I found David Newman (Durga Das)and his music today. Ihave to listen closer to this, I think there can be some pearls here...

Blessed be and love for all,

Guru Ram Das

Flow in the universe

Guru Ram Das Chant - Sat Kartar Kaur

My teabag message from Yogi Tea today told me "No ego, no problems." So true... :-)

Blissful,

Accepting yourself , feeling good enough

It's hard, isn't it? Accepting yourself, feeling good enough...

I been battling thoughts the latest days about if what I can offer ever will be good enough... What could I ever offer as a yoga teacher? Will it be good enough or will it be like I am robbing my students of their money? What can I bring to the table that is unique, why should anyone want to take my classes?

I know I would like to have; music filled classes with lots of love and energy. But will I ever find my "team"? Watch Sat Darshan Singh and the Kirtan Caravan playing live at a yoga class in NYC. It would be bliss to be able to offer something like this to my community.

First time teacher

Yesterday I instructed my friend who joined me for some Kundalini yoga and meditation. It was hard, and I was nervous. But I think it went ok. :-) And I liked it, it was fun to share my love for kundalini yoga. I hope I did a at least OK job teaching.

Today I have been trying to learn a part of So purkh:

tooN ghat ghat antar sarab nirantar jee har ayko purakh samaanaa.
ik daatay ik bhaykhaaree jee sabh tayray choj vidaanaa.
tooN aapay daataa aapay bhugtaa jee ha-o tuDh bin avar na jaanaa.
tooN paarbarahm bay-ant bay-ant jee tayray ki-aa gun aakh vakhaanaa.
jo sayveh jo sayveh tuDh jee jan naanak tinH kurbaanaa.

I love this song that Hari Bhajan Kaur and Sat Hari Singh has made.

I have also been renovating more on the outside of our house together with my husband. I think it was the last minute because now I can hear the wind roar outside, and I don't think there will be many days before it is to cold to be outside renovating.

Waiting...

Listning to Full Lotus Kirtan Show waiting for an interview with GuruGanesha, but it is always an other kirtan song to listen to... Will I have waited in vain? I can't enjoy the music (which I by the way love) when I wait in anticipation.

Well, well I have said it before "What will come, will come". I just have to wait with trust :-)

Ah, the little things in in life.

...

I missed the interview somehow, I'll try to look for a way to download the program tomorrow.

Peace and love

When I play the guitar and sing, I feel peace and love. And my husband is very supporting of my new found interest. Playing Sat Narayan over and over, and some Rise up in between. :-) My fingertips hurts again...

A couple we know are going through a separation right now with betrayal as a key ingredient and there are children involved. Not pretty, but the thought of this whole sad story this makes me feel more love then ever for my husband. I would never want to cause that kind of pain onto him. Just the thought of him makes me smile, I can hardly believe I am so lucky to call him my husband!

Today we have finished painting the front of our house windows and doors, they are now beautiful English red! The house looks amazing, very warm and inviting. I am so happy! My mother, me and my husband have spent this weekend and tonight painting. My father has been giving tips on what paint to use and how to go about this project. It has truly been a joint effort, and that feels nice! Especially since I have been keeping my calm and not hitting the roof with all my "I know how this should be done myself not taking any advice"-feelings, as I used to do. That is great! I look forward to more peaceful family relations in the future, just due to my own handling of things. I changed, no one else. :-)

Cherish those you have around, friends and family. Love to all.

Great music - Adhara

Nirinjan Kaur's cd Adhara

Here you can feel the love and support you need. I am lucky and blessed and I feel the love surrounding me. I am so happy that I was given this opportunity to find and explore sikhism.

Love & Light

It's time of the Lord and love is all you see...

My darling husband has collected his old guitar from is parents house and now I'm play again. I have been able to play Rise up half way through and it's a beautiful feeling. :-) But the guitar smells kind of funny so I will have to let out into the garden tomorrow for some air.

You all might think that I always have liked singing and playing instruments but no, that is so not the case. I have always liked music, but gurbani and kirtan has awaken my own longing to participate in music. And I love it! Learning to play an instrument (or two) makes me feel like everything is possible... No boundaries!

Wahe Guru!

Peace & Bliss

To slow?

I read Saranpreet's blog post today, as most days. She has truly made an amazing journey, and how much I ever feel happy and warm fuzzy feelings for my spiritual sisters journey, I am wondering way I am so slow? I feel like a three year old child not a thirty year old woman. "I want, I want! Me too, me too..." but life is not like that... I will receive what I am ready for... I know I shouldn't compare, you never should. But I want everything to go fast, fast, fast and I guess this spiritual awakening thing is taking the time it needs, or more to the point, the time I need.

What I miss is the complete letting myself go, bow your head and go home like Snatam Kaur sings in the song Golden Temple. I so admire Saranpreet for that, while I treading water she just dives from the shores (as I think she wrote once).

One day I will be ready. One day I will hear someone call "Har Anand" and I will turn around and smile. Thinking of this makes my eyes tear up.

This is what I want to sing, play and feel! Wahe Guru Bliss - Bachan Kaur And this is also what I wish for all my spiritual sisters out there, and if you are a spiritual brother... well, come join the family! :-)

Gobinda mantras

Been singing along with Snatam Kaur, all weekend. This is a live recording Gobinda Hari, including both the mantra

Gobinda Gobinda Hari Hari

Gobinda means God and is the Sustainer and Support of All. Hari also means God but in the aspect of the fresh, beautiful, potent healing energy we all have in us.

and the mantra

Gobinda Gobinda Gobinda Gobinda Gobinda Gobinda Gobind-aah

for strength, fearlessness, courage and security. This mantra also represents the sustaining energy in the universe.


I'm really sorry I missed Saranpreet's live kirtan yesterday, because I was still not recovered for my fever and coughing. But there will come other times to meet and sing.

Today I have been practising more on the keyboard, fun! If you play an instrument you might be interested in this link. It contains lyrics and chords to spiritual songs, I use it for my keyboard playing but I think the chords actually are made for guitar. But it works, I guess it is no difference.

Still not well, but a little bit better

At least I think so. :-) I was supposed to work on a music festival this weekend but it it now seems it won't be that way. Since I haven't been to work this week it would be very hard to explain how I can work on the festival in weekend when I couldn't work at my regular job.

Beautiful Spirit Voyage have once again given away a great gift, not to me this time but still something to be happy about. I have done a numerology reading from 3ho and this made me look at it again. So much is correct about me, and it helps me understand things about myself. And combined with my spiritual name it is a beautiful future ahead.

I've been listening to very nice 1970-type song today, it sounds a bit old time rock and I like it.
Enjoy Guru Dass Singh - Chanting Sat Nam

Not feeling well, but on a mission

No, my body is weak and I am not feeling well at all. I think I am sick more often then other people, weird but that how it is. I will be well again!

I asked Siri Guru Granth Sahib for something to sing and make music to, these lines are now my goal to do something beautiful with:

Says Kabeer, those humble people become pure - they become Khalsa - who know the Lord's loving devotional worship.

The hukams just speaks right to us, it amazes me every time how they just pierce right through what ever shields we put up.

Please help me to get well before Saturday, I want to sing!

My invisible kara

I have one, it's always with me, I can feel it on my right arm. Sometimes I look at my naked arm, I smile thinking that one day it will not be naked anymore. :-)

My hukam today was so simple and beautiful;

I heard of the Guru, and so I went to Him.
He instilled within me the Naam, the goodness of charity and true cleansing.

I am a little bit sick today, with a sore throat, runny nose and an upset stomach. But it will pass as always. :-)

I have been singing to my Joy is now-cd from GuruGanesha, in spite of my sore throat. It is amazing how I love to sing mantras. And by the Guru's grace, maybe I will meet Saranpreet soon to sing mantras to her music, much sooner then I thought. :-)

Bird, cats, politics, kara, satisfaction, dreams

Bird
I had to kill a bird. And I cried like a baby, the loss of just one little birds life was so awful. On of my cats had taken it and it was still alive but very hurt, so I had too but I wonder, could it have recovered? Now the tears come again. But what are you to do, I do not want to see any animals suffer. Did I do wrong? What do you think?

Cats
My cats have been cuddling like, well, I don't know what after the bird killing incident. Perhaps they know that I'm not so happy with them. But it is their nature to kill birds, so what can you do? They are what they are, and they are beautiful. I very happy that we have them in our home.

Politics
Elections are coming up here in Sweden and I have been very ambivalent on how much time and effort should put into this. Now I have decided, started and it feels great. I asked for guidance and I got it, in one way or another. :-)

Kara
I been thinking about wearing a kara for the last few days, again. I always think, think, think about the kara. I am almost ready, I want to be reminded every day, every moment. But do you sleep with the kara on? I don't know, do you?

Satisfaction
I am happy, I feel the love. I wanna give love.

Dreams
I dream of meeting my dear blogging friends someday, and by the guru's grace will. If it was meant to be that why. I have faith. It is wonderful.

Love & bliss,

Joy is now, joy is here

My wonderful present from Spirit Voyage arrived today, to think that it has travelled around half the world. So now I am sitting here listening to GuruGanesha's Joy is Now smiling :-) Thank you Spirit Voyage! Bliss to you all!

I wrote some words on a yellow post-it some days ago, and just put it in my bag. I found it today and I actually think that there were something in those lines that is sweet, so I'll post them here:

Rest your mind at the lotus feet
Feel the love
flowing all around you
Blessed, peaceful
forever in bliss

Today is day number 1 of my new 40 day sadhana, it is beautiful path towards a healthier life I have set for myself. Not only a sadhana but 40 days of healthy food, more sleep and more exercise. No alcohol or tobacco, not that I do that often as it is but now I have made a promise to myself and I intend to keep it. Keep up and you will be kept up, as so many times said before. I would like to modify it though since I really feel it; "Keep up and you will be kept up in love!"

Hari Om, dear Lord
Sat Nam, Holy name
When I call on the light within I go home

More music

Some days ago Spirit Voyage team shared their playlists in a post. For me that is really inspiring; I love music and I am always on the lookout for new music I might like. So I thought that I would share what I am listening to now and so could you post a comment with your favorites of the day.

I have been restenly been listning a lot to:

1.Ardas Bhaee (from the CD "The sweetest nectar") - Simrit Kaur
2. Liberations Door - Snatam Kaur This has been my daily music for feeling good for some time now!
3. Hari om (from the CD "Joy is now") - GuruGanesha
4. Akhan Jor (from the CD "Shanti") - Snatam Kaur
5. Ave Maria (from the CD "Heart of compassion") - Ashana

I can't resist music

I can't resist it any more, I want to play and I want to sing. And since me and my sister both want to play the guitar, and I do not want to fight her to get hold of the guitar, I have come up with an alternative plan: I have collected my sisters old keyboard(with her consent) from our parents house. And now I am playing my chords on the keyboard instead. Singing and playing along with Snatam Kaur and GuruGanesha here in my living room, they are not here for real of course, they are singing from my stereo and I sitting here with my keyboard and the computer in front of me. I have been singing my heart out in Sat Narayan and Hari Om. On the computer I am looking sites with chord on the piano so I know where on the keyboard to press my fingers, while trying to move my fingers on the actual keyboard. Here is one piano chord site I have found. This is fantastic, I can play and I can sing, I sure it would sound like crap to you, but I am in heaven. This is so fun. I have also found some learn-how-to-play-and-sing-kirtan on youtube that I will try later.

I never ever thought I had so much music wanting to get out of me, I love it, I feel surrounded.

Have a fantastic weekend!

Bliss & peace