Change

Right now I'm not feeling very well. I'm right in the middle of an emotional storm feeling insufficient, sad and weak. My body aches, I'm nauseous and very tired. I hope this will pass soon and that I can feel well again. I believe all my emotions and the physical symptoms has to do with my discovery of my values and how I don't live by them. I guess this is how the beginning of change feels like, when you have not started to work through it yet.

Today I did a sadhana I received from a Kundalini Yoga teacher that I am in contact with. I'm amazed the he took the time to give me my own sadhana, what a beautiful gift from someone I only meet twice. He was supposed to give a beginners course in Kundalini Yoga but there wasn't enough interested, so it got cancelled after the two free try out lessons. He is a really sweet man. I'll do my best to keep the practice up for at least 40 days, and I really hope the higher power within me will help me with this.

An other beautiful gift came today by email. A women on the course this weekend had seen that I was moved to the brink of tears during one of the exercises and sent me an email asking med if I was OK now. That was very nice of her, I think. She is a person to look up to in other aspects of life and this makes her even a greater role model.

I also saw that I have a follower on this blog today. That is also gift, to know that someone listens to once written thoughts. Someone whom I never met.

My husband has been a real sweetheart showing me even more love, now when I need it the most. He is amazing and fantastic, every day with him is a gift. I love him.