After my 40 days, I've been feeling a bit low. At first I couldn't really say what went wrong. I have got a new kundalini yoga and meditation set for my sadhana, but I haven't started yet. I been doing my old set, I've been keeping up, but blaming lack of time for my laziness not to start with the new set.
I feel disappointed in myself for not taking the time to start the new set and that is probably why I'm feeling low. I also think it's really ungrateful of me to ask my teacher for a new set and then not do it. He has put time and effort on this, and I will not?
All change is hard, and I'm afraid that, well this is really stupid, I will not like the new sadhana because it will be hard since it's new and then I'll have trouble keeping up. But life isn't easy and I like the way sadhana makes me feel.
I'm making my self a promise: The next set I do will be the new one.