I'm in the land of undecided. I see a possibility to go to the European Yoga Festival, already this year. There is a, rather expensive, solution to get there and if I manage to get a work exhange place on the festival I will have the money to go, I think. But I will not know anyone and it's the same week as me and my husband 1 year anniversary. He says his OK with me going, but I will miss him a lot. But on the other hand I can't force him to go on something he doesn't want to, that would just be wrong for both of us. Should I try to make this happen? I long for it so much I ache, maybe it will not be as I think?
I long for sadhana with other people and I long for mantra singing and chanting. I'm affraid that people will be hippie-type strange and that I will feel out of place. That would be the worst, as it is now I can dream that I belong somewhere, somewhere I can feel unity.